Mistakes

       It is said “To err is human but to accept it is divine”. Keeping the divine part separate it is interesting to check out the number and frequency of the mistakes we make. Talking about myself, I have made big blunders in my life and am still paying the price. Want to how then read on……
        Well, from childhood I have been an introvert and I haven’t changed a bit. In those days I was really afraid of my parents and whenever they used to scold me for something I used to get both scared and angry. In that mind set I made a lot mistakes. The biggest of them was the decision not to read any books other than the books within the curriculum. They always had a problem when I used to read books like champak and thakthak. I know these books were nothing to improve my intellectual skills, but that was the age to start with such easy stuff so that I could try the harder one latter. They told me that I was wasting my time; I should read the Balbharati and Itihas (History). One day I decided “OK. Fine. You want me not to read these books ‘now’, I wont read them anyways in the future”. That was the biggest mistake in my life. I feel really bad when I think how I made such a raw decision.
          I keep making such mistakes now and then. In fact, more often than less I repent. The biggest problem with mistakes is rectifying them (though accepting it is much tougher, may be that’s why accepting mistakes is divine). I remember I have said so many bad things to Sidscope and Sankalp. After a while I realize I have made a mistake and should say sorry to them. But I am no god. Whenever I go to talk with them I realize that they have already forgotten it, so why to say sorry? Well because it is your responsibility as a friend that’s why!! One mistake I generally make is to delay my decision-making till the problem really creeps up to your neck. I am already on the verge of losing something or rather someone (which I can’t tell you now). It’s difficult, really difficult. I always try not to repeat the same mistake, but it hardly happens that way. I hope in the future I will better at handling mistakes.